princess
i knew this day would come. we have reached the age of princess fanaticism. princesses princesses everywhere. koruna watched cinderella for the first time last week and now her favorite thing to do is pretend we are all characters in cinderella's life story. i recall as a child always wanting to get to be cinderella, but at least for now runa likes to be the characters with a little more bite. she likes to be the wicked stepsisters, the cat, or one of the mice. so i often get to be cinderella these days and honestly, i find her quite boring... rooster got invited to her (our) first fairy princess party this weekend. runa wore the beautiful beaded ensemble that ivy brought her from india and she went as an indian princess.
i can tell that halloween is gonna be fun.
un ano
a year. it's been a year since marvel appeared on this earth. right here in this house. oh lovely day.
i feel like i didn't exist before marvel. and in a way, it is true. i feel like whoever i used to be is gone, replaced by koruna and marvel's mama.
i used to feel like the leading lady in my own life. but as i alternately dance and trudge through early motherhood, i have come to understand that's no longer true. we, the ingrams, are an ensemble cast. i am just as invested in the other characters as i am in myself - often more so. there are moments that i feel exasperated by that, wishing for more time to think my own thoughts or to search for some small glimmer of recognition of who-i-once-was.
but most moments i am simply yet madly in love with our ensemble. our posse. our tribe.
and it is marvel heron ingram - our wondrous one, our treasured son - that completes our tribe.
i love every cell, every moment of him. i love his subtleties and his substance.
and i swear i love this whole damn world more now that he is in it.
she likes to do drawings
some moments i feel like runa's sun looks.
some moments i feel like louie looks.
it's a roller coaster ride, raising young kids. it makes me cry and it makes me laugh and sometimes it's just SO MUCH that it makes me feel like i'm gonna scream and throw up.
love it.