one-month-old family

when i look at this photo, i am surprised by how awake ian and i appear.  i sometimes look in the mirror and don't want to recognize the gal i see - she looks haggard.  a newborn and a two-year-old make for challenging company at times.  ian and i often have to look at each other and sigh or shake our heads.  sometimes we just laugh (to keep from crying).  but every trying hour also holds in it such sweet, achingly beautiful moments.

i LOVE this.  but honestly, there are instances (like when i can't get away from the smell of my son's spit-up because i am covered in it or when i feel like throwing a tantrum WITH my daughter) that i have to remind myself of that.

it's a full-spectrum life, parenthood.

 

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the big sister